Lately I've been thinking that I might be (slightly) depressed.
Not only that but I think that I had an over eating disorder, because I've packed on a couple of pounds. Then whenever I saw myself in the mirror, I realized that I am out of shape and disgusting. So I've stopped eating almost everything, but every now and then I'll have a full meal but only if it is very low in calories. So now I think that I have yet another eating disorder, but this time it's the other way around.
Not until now has the fact that I like to seclude myself from large crowds of people bothered me, and I now fear that I'll live forever without any true friends worth having. this is probably yet another sign of depression.
Not only that but I think that I've found the person that I'd like to spend the rest of my life with and I don't think that they'll ever like me. I don't know what's wrong with me, before I thought that they liked me, then I wasn't sur, then again I thought that they liked me, but now I don't think that they're interested at all. the 'person' has a great sense of fasion and everything, and then there's me, a retarded kid with no sense of fasion or a life. And I feel like there's never going to be something there for me.
I have many friends that I kind of hand around and stuff because that's what it's like at Rickards but I still feel left out.
Even though i have some friends who have/had cut themselves, I won't even consider it.
What's wrong with me?
I'm thinking about asking my parents to take me to a 'shrink', should I or not?