Finch
Whats it to ya?
Angry ranting!
I am. Well, some of you may have noticed I stopped being nice sort of awhile ago. Well, im just fed up now. All of my life I have tried to be nice. I enjoyed making people happy. Enjoyed being around people. I wanted to go out of my way to help because it was the right thing to do. Say hi. Open doors for people. Things no going well? Let me try to cheer you up. I had advice.
And I hated being inflammatory. Anything that can be said can be said in a civil way. No need to get other people angry. W can just talk this out, blah blah. Ok sometimes I didn’t feel like being all that nice, but tried my best anyways because bad moods affect other people’s days too. Don’t want to let your bad day ruin theirs. Its hard, but I tried to make an effort.
Right?
And know where it gets me? NOWHERE that’s what. It’s a strain to be nice when everyone else think they can just walk right over you, take advantage of your kindness. Over and over again! People who who have only been nice to talk @$%# behind your back. People you think are friend backstabbing you and ditching you cause there too polite to say go away and get fed up. Always making an effort to go see people, to get out there, to be inclusive nly to realize no one cares enough to do it in return. Always making friendly visits to others, having what you think is a good time only to figure out no one ever thinks enough of you to visit you. Hey we are headed blablabla, want to join us? As IF. No one ever says that. No one even tries to make an effort in return, to return favors! Or to try in engage you in a actual conversation. Guess who’s the one always initiating them. With my condition, I cant tell tones of voice of facial expressions, and it only make me try that much harder to make up for my problems.
All that effort, and what is the return? Unanswered phone calls, hearing about things said behind your back- when you try to make an effort not to say anything agains others behind their back and they go and do it to you.
Being nice is its own reward! Not for me! Hahah :-(
Well NO MORE! I cant take the heartache and the strain anymore. Since being nice gets me nothing, then I have nothing to loose now that I have turned bitter. You have to have friends to lose them! Hah. Its been a kind of gradual slide, as those of you I have bit lately have noticed (Ill bet!) but I have just cracked and it takes all my effort now just to sustain emotional stability at a level that is not always condescending and inflammatory.
And guess what? I just don’t care anymore.
I am. Well, some of you may have noticed I stopped being nice sort of awhile ago. Well, im just fed up now. All of my life I have tried to be nice. I enjoyed making people happy. Enjoyed being around people. I wanted to go out of my way to help because it was the right thing to do. Say hi. Open doors for people. Things no going well? Let me try to cheer you up. I had advice.
And I hated being inflammatory. Anything that can be said can be said in a civil way. No need to get other people angry. W can just talk this out, blah blah. Ok sometimes I didn’t feel like being all that nice, but tried my best anyways because bad moods affect other people’s days too. Don’t want to let your bad day ruin theirs. Its hard, but I tried to make an effort.
Right?
And know where it gets me? NOWHERE that’s what. It’s a strain to be nice when everyone else think they can just walk right over you, take advantage of your kindness. Over and over again! People who who have only been nice to talk @$%# behind your back. People you think are friend backstabbing you and ditching you cause there too polite to say go away and get fed up. Always making an effort to go see people, to get out there, to be inclusive nly to realize no one cares enough to do it in return. Always making friendly visits to others, having what you think is a good time only to figure out no one ever thinks enough of you to visit you. Hey we are headed blablabla, want to join us? As IF. No one ever says that. No one even tries to make an effort in return, to return favors! Or to try in engage you in a actual conversation. Guess who’s the one always initiating them. With my condition, I cant tell tones of voice of facial expressions, and it only make me try that much harder to make up for my problems.
All that effort, and what is the return? Unanswered phone calls, hearing about things said behind your back- when you try to make an effort not to say anything agains others behind their back and they go and do it to you.
Being nice is its own reward! Not for me! Hahah :-(
Well NO MORE! I cant take the heartache and the strain anymore. Since being nice gets me nothing, then I have nothing to loose now that I have turned bitter. You have to have friends to lose them! Hah. Its been a kind of gradual slide, as those of you I have bit lately have noticed (Ill bet!) but I have just cracked and it takes all my effort now just to sustain emotional stability at a level that is not always condescending and inflammatory.
And guess what? I just don’t care anymore.
