So... about 3 hours ago, i got mugged.
three years of aikido, and i got mugged.. and it wasn't pretty. But my defeat is the least of my worries - i'm fine save for a messed up nose, and a busted up lip/tooth. I didn't have any money with me, so i didn't lose anything but pride.
No.. what is most unsettling, is who did it. Two black males. Both of them dressed like hoodlums.
Now befopre anyone gets accusatory, i am a white male.. 6'7, 230 lbs, dressed like a goth in all black and with a few spikes. I grew up in roseburg - a city with maybe 5 black people, and moved to eugene, where there are maybe 8 black people - 3 of them are good friends of mine (i'm exaggerating of course, but to say the least, there aren't many of them here).
My father was a klansman, and he took me to a lot of rallies when i was a kid. A divorce and years of meditation later, i would like to think i am not racist - hell i'm the first to say i love black people - i even have black friends who i would gladly die for.
But now... now i fear i won't be able to see black people who are dressed 'gangsta' the same way - and i fear that may spread to black people as a whole.
I just want some advice on what i should do, and what i should think about... i'm really messed up over this, and i don't want to let racism take seed in me again. When i saw another black guy though, just walking down the street after talking to the police, i couldn't take my eyes off him, and i felt myself getting ready for a fight.
I don't want to live a life of fear of a color, since it could have been a white, a mexican, an asian, anything.
Any advice would be nice... thanks