being a single mom is hard i know. It doesnt help when you have a "rebelious" teen whos anti government, It also doesnt help when youre mom was in the military for 20 years.
I support my mom in her choice, and am completely aware of where she is coming from and why she would be against some of the things i do and support
Thats a little back ground.
Today at school the principal called me to the office, not to worried about any thing i went down relaxed in a good mood, Maybe it was a congratulations on the effort i had put in at school, making the B honor roll for the first time in ooh 6 years. Knowing this was not the case i kept my hopes up i haven't done any thing wrong. Ive served my detentions and Saturday schools. Nothing to worrie about, almost the end of the day, about to go to a friends house and get some salvia to extract (we recently got 2 kilos :sly: )
Well I got to the office and he called me in. Tony a kid in my home room, was in their too, imedietly got a wave of dread. thrown over me like a cold sweat soaked football towel. This was about the Pledge. The past 3 years living in a rural school hasn't been easy to say the least, and the start of my senior year also hasn't been so smooth, the new super intendant has been rough. Getting away with In school suspension has cause huge over crowding of Saturday school. I sat down and he started off with a calm cool voice that of a principal who has seen quite a bit at his school. "So do you guys know why you are down here?" In responce, i willingly and gladly spoke up
"Yes we haven't been standing for the pledge let alone saying it, it probably upsets you" I looked him right in the eyes and gave him a cute smile.
Looking back from me to my friend Tony, he asked why "No reason really" tony said blankly. Which was the truth, tony really was kind of lazy though he didnt show it jet dark hair, pale skin you got the impression that he kinda sat around allot inside playing video games.
"Well their are things that the government have done that I dont agree with. I feel the government reflects its country, and so do the blind ignorant people who refuse to make an effort for change" Saying with confidence, I had my reasons what was it to him?
Was it the new "tradition" of the veterans coming in on friday, while the choir and band (both of which I'm in) come in to speak and we give them thanks for serving our country. Or was it just that he was sincerely concerned why i wasn't standing for the pledge? He talked to us a little more, trying to figure out, after about 5 min's tony left. As the door creaked closed, I felt a rush, this is what its all about telling people informing the uninformed, this was when I felt most patriotic. I am a Patriot, just because i don't agree with every thing the government does doesn't mean I'm not a Patriot.
"Patriotism is keeping true to the values that your country was founded on. If this means protecting your country from the government then thats what needs to be done. A patriot must be willing to speak out against its government and do what must be done to preserve the values that their country stands for. The most dangerous thing you can have in a democracy is blind patriotism (ie everyone loves Americans no matter what we do)." - A quote from a friend
We talked, for 10-15 mins, in deep conversation of why I should stand. It came down to, I have a right not to stand for the pledge, let alone recite it. Looking at him a bit frazzled, filled with addrenaline, i said "Their is no reason for you to make me stand up, its my right my belief in not standing, I have my reasons, and they are my own. No one can suppress my expression."
Obviously no one can, coming from the kid sitting in the principals office, studded jacket, tight black jeans 20 eye Boots. With a Mohawk spiked up.
"Well ill tell you what you can choose not to stand, but im going to ask you to come to the office after your home room teacher takes attendance if you arent going to stand" He said almost to defensively, kind of like shoving a corn cob where it shouldn't go. It pissed me off. I asked why he said I had to come to the office theirs no reason why.
"You have to understand, im the principal, i make the rules you have to do what I tell you, and I feel it is MY right, to get rid of disruptions in class," As if sitting quitely while the morning anouncements come over the intercom, with his cool breezy voice bellowing out through out the whole school, maybe working on some homework or just reading a book was disturbing the "class", "And i feel that what you are doing is disruption and its my duty as principal of this school to bring you to the office during home room cause i see it fit.
The vice principal quietly nods, agreeing, sitting quietly, like a spectator at a great debate between two political candidates, the one with the most money/support is always going to have the power. It made me mad, he was just watching me, defending what little freedom at this school i had being stripped away even more.
"I support peoples little clubs/cliches and the believes people have, but this isn't like we are saying prayer, thats handled by the state to be not apart of our public school system"
Now, i was given my choices i fully understood and comprehended them, i asked "What would happen if i chose not to stand and not to come down to the office"
"we will deiced that when it happens" He said.
I go back to my class. Obviously upset with what just happened. :flame:
I was patiently waiting to get out of school see what happened tomorrow, almost anxious as if it was Christmas. 6th period ends, 7th period band, most of my punk buddies are in band, they think its funny, cause I'm the one that always gets in trouble for things like this. :brickwall:
Well, towards the end of band I get called down to the office, as I leave, I say loudly enough that my band teacher gives me a dirty look "hurray, more rights being stripped from the Americans, and in our schools no less!"
On the way down I quitely think that was fast he found out what he needed to in 30 mins? We had made a deal he would find outif he had the right to make me come to the office.
Obviously he hadent, he just wanted to get our problem over with. We talk, he says that I have no choice He is the principal i do what he says. Dictators are so pompous. "Why it makes no since this isnt right to me, where is the rule saying I have to come to the office if i dont stand. What happens If i dont come Insubordination, non-compliance?"
Non-compliance gets you expelled at our rural farm school apparently, for something as innocent as practicing my rights.
So he calls my mom I go back to band, knowing this wont be a fun day. As soon as I go out to the hallway waiting for the Driver Bell to ring, my mom calls, upset. Here it comes the flood of tears, trying to break me down feel guilty. Not the first time shes used this tactic.
We talk, as she crys when i get home, about her service, how ive screwed up allot recently (mostly once i dropped my dead beat, self righteous, lieing, manipulative christain ex gf last year) We talked, about how 9/11 happend, why. Why i disliked the government.
She said it was a slap in the face, and is persistent on making me stand. What the heck should I do? I don't agree, but i do support the USA just not the way the Government is running things. With the way we are being told what to do.
I don't know what to do cause all she has been doing is crying and theirs nothing I can do cause she doesn't even want to look at me. It's awkward being round her in my house now cause she just looks at me with disappointment and almost hate.
(Sorry I copied what i wrote from another forum that doesn't mind swearing"