As many of you know, I am committed to my sobriety. Which means I'm pretty hardcore about my AA program as it pertains to my past drug addiction. That being said, I am avidly practicing the steps of the program. One of which I'm really trying to work on again is step 3) Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him. Having had a spiritual awakening I feel it is God's will for me, in this life, to be a better father, husband, and self. In order to do so, I have to constantly ask myself if the decisions I'm making, and the things I'm doing are God's will as I believe it.
Well, no offense to the community, this forum, or the people here.. but this place has really been pissing me off lately. Which has really been affecting my home life. I've been a real jerk and a pain in the butt to live with lately because of my altered mood from certain things around here. Which is pretty pathetic, I know. But other than AA, this is my ONLY social outlet. Which is also pretty pathetic. But hey, I'm sober and disabled so my "real" friends are nonexistent these days.
Anyways, the reason I closed everything and left was because, rather than trying to bend here and continue to get pissed off and being a dink to live with, I decided it was best to just remove the problem from my life. Hence, closing all my active threads, contests, giveaways.. and just leaving. Unfortunately, even though I immediately felt better at home over the past week.. my days felt empty of social outlets. So now I'm a depressed and lonely tool. I need to find a happy medium between here and gone. SOooo..
Since no one picked up the POTM, I'll continue to do so. Rules are set in stone, and won't be changed or bent on. They've been that way longer than I've been a member, and so that's the way they'll stay. The other contests are done. They were my creation, and went sour really fast. Therefore, they are dead.
My being around is going to stay at a minimum until I can create a happy living situation once again. Since my family matters most to me, as does their happiness. BUT.. my online family also matters to me. As you are my only "real" friends these days. I couldn't quit you if I tried TF.
That being said, please bare with me while I try to make these minor life changes.
Thanks for reading, and maybe understanding..