I grew up in a Baptist church since I was old enough to remember. Iíll be the first to tell you Christians can be some of the most hypocritical people I know of.
But in the same respect they can also be some of the most loving. This is also true of people from other religions, to include atheist. After high school I joined the Army. Long story short: I was married when I went in. Finished basic &AIT,
Was stationed in Germany and immediately deployed to Bosnia in May of 96. As a convoy Gunner. Came home, marriage fell apart, wife left for the states, Countless affairs, drugs, alcohol, you name it Iím sure Iíve done it at least once. I really was very angry with God because of ďall Heíd done to meĒ. I stopped going to church after Bosnia. I told Him if he would just keep my marriage together I would serve him. I thought Iíd held up my end of the bargain, so why didnít He? I knew in my heart there was a God, but I no longer had the desire to serve Him.
I didnít know what to make of the evolution stuff either. I was taught that the earth was created in 7 literal days, and was only approximately 10,000 years old. Science can prove rather accurately that this is not true. So, I was back to the beginning where did we come from? I began to study all aspects of this in order to appease my ďmonkey curiosity ď, as Barry would put it. In studying I found theoryís, extrapolationís, guesstimations. There is evidence of evolution- fine but how did life begin. Could it possibly be through chance? My answer comes as a resounding NO! The smallest matter containing life is made up of millions of subatomic particles. Scientist can clone, but the matter, which is used in this already, contains life. We can not create life in a controlled environment. So is it possible given Billions of years life can form on itís own from complete chaos? Even if you took the bones in the human body (216 I think) and laid them side by side, gave them an undetermined amount of time the odds of them forming is something like 1 in 216 to the 10th power, or 2,160,000,000,000. This figure doesnít even include the odds of them coming together in an operable form.
Now when I considered that life at itís most basic level contains millions of subatomic particles the number gets pretty ridiculous as to the odds of life forming
By chance. It actually takes more faith to believe in a random creation of life than it does the Creator. The math doesnít lie on this. How then could I believe life evolved from a single celled organism? Science canít back up this theory. The biosphereís within this world alone attest to this. We know that with the extinction of a species within a biosphere other species will adapt, or evolve (whichever you care to use) the ability to perform the task formally performed by the extinct species. This measure insures the survival of that particular biosphere. But to say
That, that biosphere evolved over billions of years into a successful habitat can not be supported. It is evidence that the animals most likely occurred in-groups. Sounds like the Genesis account to me.
As for human nature, I experienced first hand in Bosnia the old saying, ďThere is no such thing as a foxhole atheistĒ. If I were to stab someone with a knife Iíd bet good money the first words out of their mouth would be ďOh GodĒ
I believe we all posses a God shaped void in our lives that come from inherent knowledge of the Creator. When facing death Iíve watched the staunchest atheist instantly become a praying man.
Iíve lived my life at both ends of the religious spectrum, and it has become apparent to me that that when I follow what I believe to be Godís plan for my life
I experience fullness Iíd thought unobtainable. When I live life according to what I believe to be His word, and actively seek a closer relationship with Him
The effect on my life, and family simply can not be ignored. I do not believe we can know the complete mind of God, and only know now what He has chosen to reveal to us. But as a parent I know I need the love, and respect of my children. I donít want them to love me based on the sole fact that Iím their parent. I want them to love me because they have a choice, and they chose to love me of their own free will. That kind of love is one of the most precious kinds of love I know. Surely this isnít far from what our Creator has in mind.
The problem I then faced was this. If Iím dealing with the creator who obviously exists outside of the restrictions of time and space, He not confined to that which he has created. This being must be perfect and righteous, so how can I the created bridge the gap between the perfect, and the corrupt. I say corrupt because I believe in absolute truth. I believe that for every action there is an opposite and equal reaction. I believe sin is the word humans use to describe the corruption of what was once good. I believe that, because of the law you are all familiars with that I stated above, sin carries with it consequences, and that consequence is death. But I canít believe a creator who claims to love me would want me dead. So what then can be done about the consequences Iíve incurred on myself? You see I began to understand that all those times I was angry with God I was not. I was selfishly upset that I had to deal with the consequences of my own corruption, or the corruption of others that had affected me. I began to understand that God did not want this separation between us, but something had to be done about this corruption. I then began to believe that God sent His Son to be the reaction to my actions. A perfect sacrifice offered once and for all
To permanently seal the barrier between us. I believe that Jesus Christ is his Son.
There were 166 prophecies about the Messiah. For some one to be able to fulfill 50 of them would be something of a marvel, but when Christ fulfilled every single prophesy given a minimum of 600 years before His birth, how can I say this? HE SEALED THE DEAL. Iíve read here where people are turned off by ďreligionĒ because of the inherent guilt it tryís to place on us. The way I understand it guilt is instigated by our conscienceís reaction to wrong doing. A built in proximity alarm to alert us that were heading in the wrong direction. For a man without a conscience is the final step into the world of the criminally insane. So it is reasonable to me a dose of guilt over wrong doings is there so that we can make restitution for those actions. When we fail to right the wrong we commit in society
The guilt increases. When we begin to harden our heart against our guilt we are in danger of searing our conscience. I still screw up; I still experience guilt I TRY to right my wrongs. If itís something Iíve done to someone I must seek his or her forgiveness, then stand before my Creator and seek His as well. Itís funny guilt melts with forgiveness. I no longer carry the condemnation of my guilt, because I myself have forgiveness. I stated that I belonged to the I just know movement. This is a self-described name that basically means: I just know Jesus is the way, I just know Jesus is the TRUTH, I just know Jesus is the life I KNOW THAT JESUS IS MY GOD!
Itís actually a song by a metal group I listen to DiscipleĒ www.disciplerocks.com
Well I started out to give my 2cents, but it looks like Iím at a dollar fifty, so Iíll finish up. These are my beliefs, and how I arrived at them.