Dyflam

Hi Dyflam

Thank you very much. It has been (and still is) a hard, hard thing. Not only because I loved him so much but my life had revolved around him and his illness for a year and a half, especially in these last months when the medication was not controlling his symptoms. Everything was about and for Ollie...and now...it's so empty and quiet. I cry every evening in my car when I get home from work and he is not there on the deck waiting for me. I am SO aware he is not there. I know I did the right thing...he suddenly took a nose dive that Tues. nite and collapsed outside. He then looked at me like "HELP ME"...and that was it. I took him in early the next morning. I know there are a lot of people who understand this deep grief. I just can't get over it. I'm trying to stay busy and do my NASC duties and to try to get out. But mostly I just cry at home for missing my boy. Thank you so much for understanding. -Suzanne